In spite of this, Kong Baiji seemed oblivious to the bleeding, as if he wasn’t the one who was injured. This was because the pain in the hand was nothing to him, and was even less than a fraction compared to the pain in his heart.
His younger brother has already been missing for no less than three whole months and twenty nine days.
Kong Baiji knows that his younger brother had already grown-up. He shouldn’t have locked him in the bedroom, and shouldn’t have tried to restrict his personal freedom. But that was just a little punishment in order to prevent further misdemeanor in staying out all night, and even a kind of protection in disguise. Kong Baiji had never thought of meting out a real punishment towards him, and had never imagined that he would disappear because of this.
This result was completely out of Kong Baiji’s expectation, that the resulting panic and pain he felt became much severe. After Shen Tong’s disappearance, Kong Baiji had also gone to look for Gu Qiange. The police forces and all available resources at hand were completely mobilized as well. But his younger brother seemed to have evaporated from this world, without leaving even a single trace.
Kong Baiji couldn’t imagine what kind of situation his younger brother was facing at this moment.
He might have been abducted by someone, might’ve met an accident, been robbed or swindled, or had even fallen ill or injured. He might’ve been caught in a car accident, and was helplessly lying alone somewhere. He held him at the palm of his hands, have doted on him for so many years, and hadn’t even once allowed him to go on a short trip by himself. Thus, these speculative scenarios had practically made Kong Baiji unable to sit or stand still, unable to sleep through the night, and caused an incessant ache in his chest with the slightest thought of these.
Once the feeling of love had crossed the line, it could quite easily become hate. Hate, on why he ran away from home without a word. This made him wish to completely tie his hands and feet, and even break his legs, so that he could no longer run somewhere else again. His mentality seems to have been filled with paranoid and dark thoughts before his younger brother’s disappearance, and will dream of some unbelievable scenes from time to time. In his dreams, there was a youth, who looks exactly like his younger brother, and a man, who’s quite similar to Gu Qiange, as well as another version of himself. He obviously got to know the youth much earlier. But he could only helplessly look on, as the youth fell in love with the man, who resembles Gu Qiange, and not even turn back to spare him even a single glance.
The scenes in the dreams were warm, but also made him feel jealous and unreconciled. There were so many messy fragments. Kong Baiji tried to sort them out, but it was completely of no use at all, as the most important piece that can put all of this together was missing, just like a tangram with missing corners.
After the disappearance of his sweetheart, Gu Qiange also began to have an incredibly strange dream.
He dreamed that he was the King of the entire demon clan, and that Shen Tong was the phoenix in the nine heavens. He dreamed that he had fallen in love with the proud and n.o.ble little phoenix, but also experienced the feeling of falling into the abyss at the loss. That feeling of loss was so intense, that it even made Gu Qiange unable to distinguish between dreams and reality.
In reality, he was already experiencing the feeling of loss.
In fact, Gu Qiange had once experienced the feeling of loss as early as when he had the first taste of love during the time he was a student. His little guy had disappeared from his mobile phone for several years before returning to his side in an unexpected way. They said that it was better to just get the pain over with, rather than to prolong the agony. Like endlessly waiting for days and days with unshattered hopes. Watching the disappointment become deeper and heavier with each pa.s.sing time, was enough to crumble away one’s life.
What’s more, this kind of feeling was something one will never get used to. It won’t be like other things that one can get accustomed from experiences. As it will only make people feel increasingly anxious and fearful with each experiences. The moment Gu Qiange learned that Shen Tong had disappeared once more, he felt as if there was an incurable gaping hole in his heart. Which will only fester more and more with the pa.s.sage of time, that causes a knife sc.r.a.ping pain with the slightest touch.
But the feeling in his dreams was even more painful than this.
Because in addition to the worry and longing, it also carries the deep feelings of despair and regret. The kind of feeling of being grinded to ashes were felt in his body and soul. He seemed to have done some irreparable mistake, and have broken something that can never be put back again.
But Shen Tong, who had already returned to the Desktop Pet’s world, wasn’t transported to the bedroom where he had originally disappeared from, nor in Gu Qiange’s mobile phone, but in a completely deserted street instead. The surrounding area were quite unfamiliar, that he completely had no clue where this place is. Without any money on him, Shen Tong was forced to walk onwards and face the cold wind.
The time right now was close to the wee hours in the morning, so, not a single person was present on this road. There wasn’t even a taxi to be found, and only a couple of private cars would sporadically pa.s.s by. Upon reaching an intersection, he noticed a brightly lit high-end clubhouse. After vaguely feeling that it was a bit familiar, he couldn’t help but walk closer, in order to try to get a better look.
“Don’t hang around this place in the middle of the night.” Seeing Shen Tong, an uncle security guard at the side entrance kindly said to him: “Go home. Don’t learn from others about running away from home in such a young age.”
Shen Tong immediately felt somewhat depressed deep inside. –He hadn’t run away from home.
As a good model student, who had been proud of his family since childhood, how could he possibly do such a thing like running away from home? This was entirely the system’s fault. It unexpectedly transported him to the main road, and had even refused to respond no matter how he called. If he could find his family, he wouldn’t have had to suffer from starvation on the road like this even if he was killed.
Shen Tong had no idea that his whole family, including the police forces, had concluded that his disappearance was due to him running away from home. He only knew that a few months had already pa.s.sed, but had no clue on what had happened to Gu Qiange and his family, whether they were anxious and worried because of his disappearance.
Kong Baiji continued on getting drunk.
Gla.s.s after gla.s.s, with all kinds of red wine and baiju. The untreated wound in his hand continued to bleed. Even if he had a good tolerance with alcohol, he would still get drunk sooner or later with the way he drinks. More importantly, his health and stomach will certainly suffer from this.
Unfortunately, the few business partners, who came with Kong Baiji, had satisfactorily completed their discussions and had left almost an hour ago. So, only one secretary and two a.s.sistants were left beside him at this moment. None of the three individuals dared to dissuade him, and could only helplessly knit there brows at the side.
Kong Baiji didn’t feel that he was drunk at all; On the contrary, he felt that the more he drunk, the more clear-headed he became. Alcohol was said to be capable of warming the insides, yet his body completely felt ice-cold.